I Don't Want to Live That’s okay. Everyone around you has probably told you it’s not. They may even have told you that these feelings are evil, wrong, or unhealthy. They are not. You are overwhelmed. Probably frightened. You feel trapped, and that’s okay. Suicide is not about wanting to die. It is about not wanting to live. It is about life becoming so unbearable, another second of it is impossible. It is about being trapped, with no way out of the pain.
Why Do I Feel Like This? Suicide is the natural culmination of an unsolvable problem. Something, probably many things, have gone wrong in your life. Did you lose a lover? A friend? Have you found yourself trapped in a financial abyss? Do you feel empty, as if your life had no meaning or purpose? You probably struggled with these feelings, attempting to repair your loss. But you can’t. The lover won’t return. The money won’t suddenly reappear. You feel worthless. You feel suffocated. Slowly drowning with no way back to the surface. In the face of zero options, the only one left is to at least stop the pain.
Is There Any Hope? Yes. The first step is to understand what is happening to you. Right now, in the midst of your despair, you cannot solve all your problems. But you can take a step. If you knew there was a way out, would you still kill yourself? Or would you at least try to travel the path first and see where it leads? |